why i seem like i don't care...

Whatever Will Be

by:Vanessa Hudgens

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings

At times I dread my now and envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told

I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

These days it feels naive to put your faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall backwards on the snow
'Cause that's when fears will usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse

Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving in?
Is the weight on your mind
A heavy black bird caged inside?

Say
Whatever will be will be
Take
The good, the bad
Just breathe

'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

Whatever will be will be
I learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
Thing like that are never in your hands
No one knows if shooting stars will land

i love that song because it just about sums up how i live my life. sometime people keep on planning, even the smallest details, that they freak out if something unplanned comes along their way. i'm not saying planning is wrong... it's actually good to know what we want, have an insight of what we want our futures to be and do what we have to do to achieve them. but expecting everything to go as planned? that is just setting yourself up for major disappointment.

i've learned that life is full of uncertainties and that expecting for something almost always lead to disappointment. so i just live for today and do what i must to not screw up my tomorrow and if life gives me unexpected surprises, good or bad, then i take it and move on. life is too short for regrets. when we do something we should know there are always consequences, be it good or bad, and we should learn how to live with it. if it was a mistake then learn and if it wasn't then good.

it's ok to be scared of what the future brings but fear shouldn't let us dictate what we do. as what i've heard before... if you want something to change then do something you've never done before. and if you do something different... that's when the surprises come in.



Lovingly Yours,
master yoda (haha)

random rants 01

i got nothing better to do... waaah! i was supposed to upload some stuff but multiply is still down. bummer! i am hungry but we can't eat dinner yet 'coz we're waiting for some visitors to arrive... demmit! i wanna eat! i wanna eat!

anywhoo... just about a few days ago i was talking to a friend and he checked out my multiply site and he read my blog there... he then asked why there isn't anything written about him there (why i didn't rant and rave when i was mad at him) this guy just practically disappeared out of my life months ago without even a goodbye. anyways... we talked again. he apologized and i sort of forgave him so i talked to him again. besides i was thinking 'hey! if you disappear again and we're not friends anymore then it's not my fault because i did forgive you... FOR THE SECOND TIME AROUND!' (hmm.. guess i'm not that cold hearted of a b**ch after all).

it just irks me because i don't let many people get too close to me. sure i got lots of friends and all but there are only a few people i allow to get a glimpse of who and how i really am. really, if you plan on disappearing from my life just say so... i won't stop you. i'd even delete you from my life voluntarily and not waste hardisk space in my life for you because there a lot more people out there i can install in my life (computer talk much? haha..).

ok that's enough. i can go eat now. and for that friend who asked why i didn't write about him...
well... this is it now... you can't complain anymore, can you? hahahaha....

hello blogspot...

well... well... well...

Hello blogspot! i've actually been here for awhile but i just forgot about it. i actually made it here after i tore out my journal and burned it... haha. it's either keep a journal (or a 'diary' if you must really call it that) and risk having my brothers or anyone in this house to find it or keep an online blog and have other people find it? either way whatever it is you wrote will be read... today... tomorrow... the next week... maybe a hundred years from now (unless of course you burn it. hah!). i've been ranting on multiply actually and in some online forums... so really this isn't the first time i wreck havoc online. haha.

anyways... whatever! i may be keeping this blog... or not... we'll just see because i am notorious for starting things i don't finish. but wouldn't it be cool if people in the future can read what you wrote? they'd be like.. "oh! so that's how they lived in the old ages. back when they had no flying cars and these mini gadgets that can teleport you anywhere..." hah!